OK I've been AWOL twice now.Where's RSV?.
I Don't need to give an explanation nor do I crave sympathy.
TBH I may look like a big 'hard' tattooed biker (anyone that's met me)
Underneath I'm a big softy really - even get tears in me eyes at sad bits in films and can become emotional with certain music - True!
(big puff!) Not true - I hope!I was encouraged to post this by Timbo. (Thanks? Tim)
Short answer (from PM's):
"Long story mate but suffice to say I hope to be back on the forum more often.
Just had some personal sorta bike related sh1t to deal with.
Basically have been looking at losing my licence on medical grounds for f*ck sake!!!!
Thankfully now I hope this isn't the case."
End of relevant PM's.
Not being able to drive the car would be an annoyance, but unsurmountable.
Not being able to ride my bikes doesn't bear thinking about!!!!
Hence the main reason for being silent after that last time.
Warning ... Do not read on if you're easiliy depressed!
Long version:
Starts in June last year...
Wife diagnosed with breast cancer (no history in family!), mastectomy, reconstruction, Chemo and all the sh1t that goes with it - still ongoing!
We're trying to be positive and have been throughout - it doesn't help us or anyone to be anything else.
On the run in September when Ian lost bottom of his leg - Didn't really know him but not something anyone wants to see.
Losing me mate Tiny in December - Big guy - feckin big loss - Mandy and I miss him like crazy.
Tw@t taking me out in December ruining me pristine Dommy - still not resolved. Once it is I'll be writing to the Insurance ombudsman - cos the company I'm with are worse than BT at communicating! Useless To55ers & blatant liars is how I'd describe them.
December into January - One of wifes dogs with spinal injuries £5000 bill which insurance only cover £3000 of! Dog still has wheels - but she's a real sweetie - vets couldn't believe she could be so happy, waggy & licky throughout it all. They operated Christmas Eve! - wonder what that added to the bill - LOL
Then in January / February get told I may have to surrender me licence for medical reasons! - Diagnosed with 'Severe' OSA (Obstructive Sleep Apnea). All I'd done was go to the docs to seek help for bad snoring so wor lass could get a good nights sleep without having to bugger off to the couch! (Obvious reasons). Referred to specialist etc etc
Apparently because my 'score' was above 12 means I could fall asleep at the wheel anytime - NOT! - Certainly not riding the Storm! I suppose they have to draw a line in the sand somewhere and I was above it!
When they monitored my blood ox levels whilst asleep - apparently I was only getting approx 2 'proper' hours sleep a night.
No wonder then, that for as long as I can remember I've been tired when I wake up and throughout the day, no matter whether I had 5 or 10 hours sleep the night before.
Thankfully (or not) I now have to use a CPAP machine when I sleep - nasal mask and positive air pressure. Don't snore at all while it remains on. She thinks it's great!!!! I'm feeling better for it but only gradually.
Still have to inform DVLA (have to tell insurance too) - I now have form to fill out and send off - Could still have to surrender my licence - but apparently because I'm 'responding under treatment' that's 'unlikely'.
We'll wait and see shall we?
This is a life or at least lifestyle changing thing - I'm not dieting but being more careful what I eat (lose weight) - I also need to kick fags (that's not stop booting gays up the backside!).
Quitting fags increases blood oxygen levels - losing weight may decrease the 'obstruction' - If not then operation time on throat and / or nasal passages.
Also recently a very close friend has lost his licence for a 2nd time for drinking - I know there's no excuse - he does too. He has few friends left because of it (mainly due to 'borrowed' money). He has to accept that he's ill and more importantly do something about it before he becomes another statistic.
The few friends he has left including myself an Mandy despair for him and help him when we can but there's going to have to be an impasse. Trouble is it's long term depression that's caused it - failed marriage to a woman he worshipped, losing 2 close friends Heath IOM in 2002 & My Brother in 2003, losing his both his parents in and amongst then losing another friend Tiny in December last year - Enough to drive anyone to drink I suppose - losing his last friends might just push him over the edge!
No wonder then I've not shown much interest in bikes or forum - apart from using the hire one to get to work and back (bike that is).
Now when I finally browse through the forum I find that Alan's been in a bad one and nobody let me know! - Thankfully he's out of hossy but as he said when I spoke to him the other night, he was in intensive care for 11 days 'critical' & 'unstable' - there were times when the doctors didn't think he'd make it!
Here's to a speedy recovery for a top bloke!!
So that's nearly 12 months of shite!!! Certainly 10.
I've had better periods and unfortunately, but thankfully not recently, darker times too.
TBH I think I must've taken a wrong turn somewhere and headed down the wrong tunnel!
There is light at he end of this tunnel.......
I just hope the bloody leccy holds!
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Family & Self 1st and foremost - everytime
Friends a close 2nd
Bikes 3rd
Other materialistic things last.
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And I told Tim I was going to try keep it brief!
Wouldn't be me if I did would it? LOL
Why use 3 words when a paragraph will do.
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lets hope it's over for you now and you and yours can get on with life.
